Just how far?

A song this morning got to me, because it is the prayer I had in my heart this morning and have had in the past too.  As I went out to Starbucks to get my Iced Chi tea (in my awesome special cup) and Zach a latte, these words came on from Casting Crown, that very much spoke to me this morning.  I love listening to music that puts to words what I am feeling, that I sometimes cannot find.  I think I have done that all my life, and it could not be more true for me now. 



"Here I am, Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness

The chains of yesterday surround me

I yearn for peace and rest
I don't want to end up where You found me

And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight

I know You've cast my sin as far as the east is from the west

And I stand before You now as though I've never sinned

But today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west?

'cause I can't bear to see the man I've been come rising up in me again

In the arms of Your mercy I find rest

'cause You know just how far the east is from the west

From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin

Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in

Today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You've washed me white, turned my darkness into light

I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night

I can't live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals

I'm not holding on to You, but You're holding on to me

You're holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west

I don't have to see the man I've been come rising up in me again

In the arms of Your mercy I find rest

'cause You know just how far the east is from the west

From one scarred hand to the other

One scarred hand to the other

From one scarred hand to the other "

'Woman' for me, 'I don't have to see the woman I've been come rising up in me again'  man flows better.  I am just hanging on to Jesus this morning, sometimes I feel like by a pinky--He'll pull me back up though. 

I've watched alot of TV and movies in my life, and so, I think in images.  My brain is like a constant movie reel.  Today, I am seeing myself as the 'girl in distress' about to fall off a cliff, and Jesus is my Prince, Rescuer, who is pulling me back up to safety.  Dramatic?  yeah.  Real?  YES!