The title, "Audiam vocal eius, " is Latin for "I listen to His voice." Psalm 119:105 is a well-known
verse, “Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path.” Nothing better
describes the role of God’s word, His voice, during my 3 ½ year journey from
infertility to a healthy pregnancy of multiples!
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| This has been taped to my mirror since April 2012. |
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| This has been on our living room table since April 2012. |
After Zach and I married, we
both knew we wanted children and saw no reason to wait, but God had other plans
as He often does. After almost a year of trying, we went to a fertility doctor to start the testing process and the
best ways to approach our issues. The
first thing suggested to us was timed ovulation with a trigger shot for me to
ovulate. After that did not work, we
moved on to IUIs. After 2 of those did
not work, we took a break. During this
time, the Lord was so merciful to us. We
were surrounded with friends who understood, who kindly sympathized, and prayed with us. I joined with Caroline Harris for Mom’s
In the Making. It was there that I
discovered what the Bible says about fertility, how God loves to bless His
children, and that He wants us to ‘be fruitful and multiply’. During this time, I had several visions of my
children. Two visions specifically. There were always three children the same age, 2 girls and 1 boy, playing in my
kitchen and in the other one they were playing outside. I had a good friend tell me she had a dream
and felt strongly I was going to have triplets.
I was not sure exactly what to think at this point, I just knew that God
was going to give us children in His time.
I got the courage to return to the doctor, and try IUIs again. After those failed, we began to consider
IVF. To this point, we had felt wary of
this procedure. IVF is much more intense
than IUIs, more time, more money, more shots, and also, more ethical decision-making. Every couple that decides to try IVF must
make these decisions for themselves.
Thankfully, we went to a doctor that was able and willing to freeze eggs
(or oocytes) our goal was to transfer all embryos to my uterus, as opposed to
freezing embryos. Again, after our
research and prayer, this was the plan we came up with and every couple is
different. Because we wanted to transfer
all embryos, we took the chance of less success by inseminating very few
eggs. Praise God, we had a successful
retrieval. Our doctor stated that
because I am 31 years old, protocol is to transfer no more than 2 embryos. However, if we had 3, she would be reluctant
but willing to transfer 3 if it came down to that. (Note: she seriously doubted we would get 3
with the few eggs we were willing to inseminate!) I did not mention all the
signs I was getting about 3!
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| These flowers popped up in March 2014, nothing has grown there since. I don't have a green thumb! |
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| The March birthday card Zach got for me! |
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| From my journal March 9, 2014 |
In April 2014, we had 2 embryos to transfer, and I was hopeful, but then heartbroken when we found out this was not it.
We were not pregnant. We took a
month off. During that time, I had a
friend come visit me from Colorado.
While she stayed at our house, she had a dream we had triplets. She told us how her 3-year-old daughter
prayed every night for “Haley’s two baby girls.”
There is a pond near our home that we go walking our dog,
and there was a momma duck with 3 ducklings.
In May, we returned to the doctor’s office. We thawed 4 eggs to then inseminate. And, low and behold, we had 3 embryos! On the day of transfer, I could feel the
almost ringing of spiritual activity. (I
don’t know how else to describe it!) Our doctor came in the room, and gave us
what I would call quite the lecture. She
said we had a 10% chance of having triplets, and then listed all the medical
risks involved with having multiples.
She wanted us to freeze one. I
have to admit, I started to doubt our decision for a moment. But I could not ignore the months full of wondrous
signs and words given to us. “3, 3, 3,
3, 3” kept running through my head! Zach
stood strong behind me. All three were
going in, and God was in charge.
In the transfer room there are two screens. One was of my uterus; one was the lab dish
with the embryos with “HILTON” written on it. Because we were breaking protocol, I think our
doctor wanted everyone in the office to be present. It was a crowd! Even at just a few cells, our
babies put on a show! The three tiny
circles formed in a triangular position all together, with 2 on the bottom and
1 on top between the “L” and “T.”
Everyone looked at the screen and I could see their mouths drop. One doctor said, “I have never seen that
before!” She looked at me, “It’s like they are making a cheerleader pyramid for
you!”
That was a huge moment for me. I knew we were doing the right thing, no
matter what happened, those were my babies!
Things happened quickly after that!
On June 23rd, 2014, we got the news that we were
pregnant!!!! My beta numbers were extremely high.
On July 14th, we had our first sonogram.
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| 1st sonogram of babies, 3 strong heartbeats! |
On September 26th, we found out baby A is a boy,
and babies B and C are our girls!
I am currently 21 weeks pregnant. Everyone is healthy, and progressing
well!
Now, the last thing I would ever want is for someone to read
this and think that I somehow used Scripture and magically made some sort of
spell and predictions to get my babies. Not at all! My story is in many ways no different from any
other Christian. My story really begins
with repentance. My life embedded in
Christ, is where my life really began.
Repentance that leads to true sorrow for my sin leads straight into true
healing because “while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.” I have Jesus’
righteousness clothed around me, so that when I approach the Father with all my
fears, desires, and questions, He sees the Son.
I am an heir in Christ!
Surrendering to God’s will for my life has brought me to
this point, and will carry me through motherhood! May you read this and give all the glory to
God our Father! We thank Him for medical science, we thank Him for the doctors and lab workers, we thank Him for the faithful prayers of others on our behalf, and we thank Him for these new little lives! The Lord God has truly done this
for me! Blessed be His Name!
