These past several weeks I have been struggling with something that I hate. I found myself thinking highly negative and critical thoughts toward others, nagging and resentment toward even loved ones. Harboring and voicing distain toward others' wrongs. It is difficult to see in yourself the very things you know is wrong, that you can so easily see in other people.
I have been thinking about John 3:17 "For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him." At first, I said, how nice, thanks Jesus. I like to personalize God's word to me, "For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn Haley, but to save Haley through him." Okay, save me from what? Well, that took me about 26 years to figure out. If Jesus did NOT come into the world to condemn (definition: to pronounce to be guilty; sentence to punishment) us, but to save (definition: to preserve something from harm, injury, loss, etc) us then what is it He is saving us from? Well, just what I stated above, my sin. Not only the hateful thinking of today, but of all my past sin and future sin. He came for the rest of the world too, to save us from all the sin here on earth, one person at a time.
In honor of Mother's Day, I want to illustrate what God is doing here. When my little sister was younger, like 2 years old, she would get sick with ear infections or flu or something. My mom would take her to the doctor who would perscribe some medicine. It was always a liquid medication, and Aubrey would refuse to take it. Mom knew it would help make her better, she pleaded and even at one point pinned her down to open her mouth to take it. But Aubrey would just spit it right back up in her face! That did not stop mom from desperately wanting Aubrey to agree to just swallow the medicine, knowing that it may not taste good right off, but would soon make her feel much, much better.
When I finally agree to swallow my pride, and take in the love and grace of God in Jesus, I feel much better and stronger.
This came to light for me this week. I am reading a book, Half the Sky, recommended by some ladies at our church and I quickly became critical, while overlooking the amazing job these authors put forth. Some background, this married couple, journalists investigate and bring forth the stories of women in our world today in what can only be considered our society's slavery and modern slave trade. Hundreds and thousands of women due to poverty or just in unsafe circumstances get tricked and sold into forced prostitution and are fiercely abused. They also discuss issues in countries like China and India "disappearing women" phenomion. One point the authors made confused me a little in his conclusion.
In China, women are under so much pressure from their culture and economic situations, to have sons and not daughters, that at one point when given ultrasounds if they found that the baby was a girl they would select to have an abortion. This is so sad, and a tragic problem because hundreds of girls were 'going missing' as the chapter first began in stating the problem of 'missing girls' So, regulations were made so that pregnant women were not allowed to know the gender of the child from the ultrasound. Sadly, this has led to the problem of neglected and abadoned babies---girls, in China. The author then insinuates that an easy solution to this would be to allow selective abortions......wait, what? Solve a problem with another problem? I felt this was a contradiction, and I get upset when people want to 'put bandaids over huge surgical wounds' so to speak. Just wash your hands of it rather than looking at the root of the problem. Now, the authors do spend time in other chapters doing just that, and they do talk about the heart of these issues and what we can do about it. But in this instance, I did not like how they suggest to solve one problem by using another. In these issues, I know there are no easy solutions. This book illustrated and discussed openly many of the major sins that have taken hold in our society, but what I really liked about the book is the authors gave some redemption stories.
One like Rath, a young Cambodian woman who went to Thailand thinking she was getting a job washing dishes and was instead forced into a brothel where she was betten, raped, and drugged routinuely. After more than one attempt, she finally escaped and when she returned to Cambodia there was an aid group in place that was able to give her a $400 starter loan so that Rath could start her own small business selling drinks, snacks, and souvenirs to tourists at the Thai-Cambodian border walk.
John 3:16 is a famous Bible quote, you might see it on billboards or shopping bags even. "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
"For God so loved Haley...."
"For God so loved Zach..."
"For God so loved Dan...."
"For God so loved Rachael..."
"For God so loved Aubrey...."
"For God so loved Helen..."
"For God so loved Charlie...."
"For God so loved Atticus..."
"For God so loved Rath that he gave his one and only Son for her, that if Rath believes in him she shall not perish but have eternal life."
No matter where you are, what kind of culture you live in, and what status you have here, God desperately wants you. And these women's stories remind me of how God loves each of us, and wants us to turn to Him.
I haven't read the book yet so I'll save a response to that for later! Looking forward to being able to contextualize your thoughts, thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteI can relate, however, to what you started your post off with. Most of my friends and family have different views than I do. It's wonderful to be exposed to so many different ideas, but it can also be frustrating and breed those kind of feelings you referred to. I am always willing to call someone out on their ACTIONS, but it's not really appropriate or productive to vocalize opposition to someone's beliefs or ideologies. (At least, people you love!)
To me, the only solution is cultivating empathy. It's very easy to become convinced that if you could only make the other person completely understand where you are coming from, they would agree with you. Not very often do we imagine that if they could completely convey what motivates them, we'd change our mind and agree with them! Beliefs, at least the ones that really divide people, aren't logical lists of facts that can be read to convince someone. They are almost living entities born in the battlefields of our lives.
I guess my point is, and I think it relates to the majority of your post, that I think hateful thoughts, feelings of disdain or superiority arise when we approach a conflict with only our perspective as a frame of understanding. (I am not arguing against objective truth, that's a discussion for another time, only that there is no objective perception of reality) So to me, swallowing our pride is only the first step. We must also be willing to completely cast aside our own experiences, if only for a short time, to truly listen. Hateful thinking can only be curbed by real understanding. And that's really really hard, yo! ;) But I try.
Anyway, sorry this got some rambling and off topic. Perhaps I need to start a blog of my own so I don't co-opt yours. :P
Thank you for your response, Rachael, I probably didn't make it clear that much of what I have been battling is nagging thoughts toward my loving and amazing husband and also negative and critical thinking and actions in work related situations but, yes, I just kinda came to the realization of my negative thought life going in that direction with the book.
ReplyDeleteThank you for your post, it reminds me how God gives us all freewill!! So awesome.
Yeah, I was just kind of taking what your post made me think about and then springing into a big ramble about kind of abstract things.
ReplyDeleteI am curious as to why my post reminded you of that, since I was pretty much positing the opposite, ie that our beliefs and actions are a direct result of our experiences in life and thus, at least to a certain degree, not under our control. Do you disagree with that? Kind of a big question, so no rush, haha. :)
In order to answer your question, I need to know from you. What do you believe the Bible is? Who, or perhaps what, do you believe God is? And who do you believe Jesus is?
ReplyDeleteAlrighty, I'm interested to know why you need to know those things.
ReplyDeleteThe Bible.. well, it's a collection of histories, songs, prayers, sermons, letters,etc written and complied over centuries by dozens of different people. Certainly an impressive and rich text. I used to struggle with approaching it, as it seemed so disjointed and contradictory. After taking some time to appreciate it from a historical & literary POV, I now find it an interesting knot to (attempt to!) untangle.
Your other two questions? Eep, what big ones. I'm finding myself at a loss to come up with a concise answer, which may give you a clue as to where I am on that path. I have never been comfortable with certainty. There are very few truths I hold up as infallible. It's not that I lack confidence in my convictions, only that one of my strongest convictions is in the necessity of uncertainty. I'm sure all this is clear as mud. ;) Short answer: it's complicated.
You said that part of the Bible is a collection of is hisotries. Historical events, do you believe that they actually took place? All of them, or just some of them? (I know, I know, I will get to answering your question,
ReplyDeletebut I really like hearing your point of view :) )
What truths do you hold up as infallible? based on what?
ReplyDeleteI'm sure most of them did, yes, but perhaps not exactly the way the Bible recounts. It was, after all, written by men and there is no way for people to write an objective account of history. For example, let's say we went out for lunch and had a discussion about our partners and what entails a strong relationship. If we were to record our conversation later, our histories might be very different! Let's say I went into the conversation upset about something in my relationship and wanted to commiserate. I might be more inclined to recall the complaints you lodged against Zach than the wisdoms you would no doubt impart. And if what you really found compelling was hearing more about how your brother functions in a relationship, your history might focus more on what you learned about his behavior than my grievances. No doubt we would also exaggerate, forget, or mistakenly alter details. And that's not even taking into account our audience! If I was writing about it as a persuasive essay with a feminist slant it would be quite different than if you were summarizing it for your mom.
ReplyDeleteThat's just a conversation between two family members! The Bible has dozens of different authors, writing sometimes hundreds of years apart, all with different agendas and ideas. And some books that were initially considered important were cut out entirely (whether for political or authenticity problems, I cannot say, I am no Bible scholar) and not included. That's almost like Aubrey was at this lunch with us but we neglected to mention her at all! (Or alternatively, those gospels not included are like Aubrey writing up an account like she was there even though she wasn't and we're like wtf? :P)
To me, approaching the Bible in this way makes it more palatable. Contradictions aren't theological crises, they become enigmatic puzzle pieces. Attitudes and commands that seem cruel or outrageous may not be the word of God, but a reflection of the society who wrote them down. I guess this attitude would be pretty heretical to biblical literalists, but I certainly don't think its incomptabile with being a Christian. After all, most ministers go through training in biblical history and they come out okay!
Phew, so there's that answer. Gonna have to get to your other question later. Gotta think on it.
Rachael, Thank you so much for your answers. I feel like I have a better since of where you are coming from and I think it helps me attempt to answer your original question although, I still want to hear your answer to my last one, and I still have lots of questions for you but I will stop bugging you for now. I want you to feel free to ask me questions and I love hearing from you.
ReplyDeleteThis is what freewill means to me (and you may disagree)
2 Timothy 3:16 says, "All Scripture is God-breathed..."
When I read this, when you read this, when anybody reads this, we can respond in different ways:
1. I think this is true, I would like to learn more, how does this apply to me personally?
2. I think this is false, I would like to learn more, how does this apply to me personally?
3. It is most likely true, but it doesn't really affect me and my personal life.
4. It is most likely false, and it doesn't really affect me and my personal life.
5. I am not sure if this is true or false, I want to do research to see if I can find out.
6. I am not sure if this is true or false, and I do not want to do research to see if I can find out.
7. The author meant.....something else, maybe that it is god-like or inspirational reading, good stuff he just really wanted to get his point accross - maybe this was changed somewhere along the way, and he meant to say that some of it is God-breathed or inspired but not really all of it. Maybe he was thinking of some of the scriptures, maybe some of the scriptures have been lost and he meant including ones that we do not know about. (at this point, one must go to 5 or 6)
8. It is false, no more questions either way.
9. It is true, no more questions either way.
I read this, and I choose one of the above, you will choose one of the above. You could even apply this to any part of the Bible or other literature really (although not many other literary works make this claim, there are others I am sure), that is freewill that you and I both have. And I got the sense that you approach things differently than me, so that's why it reminded me of freewill.
Beliefs: "They are almost living entities born in the battlefields of our lives." I do think this is true! well put
ReplyDeleteThank both of you intelligent,thinking, beautiful young women. I am ao happy to know you both. I wish I had a little more energy at this moment to take all your words into my brain, but I did thoroughly enjoyed reading your exchange.
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