I can understand, that for many people, running long distance and training for a long distance race is not necessarily a spiritual experience. However, for me; God used this time to draw me closer to Him. From the beginning, I knew that this was something I was suppost to do. I was going to do this for Ashley, to run a half marathon, was something I never thought I would do, and for Ashley, I know that cancer is something she would never have signed up for either.
During most of my training runs, I listened to worship music and prayed as I ran. I prayed for people I passed by, I prayed for Zach and our marriage, I prayed for family, I prayed for people hurting, I prayed for forgiveness of my sins, places I failed, and for His mercy and love. God opened my eyes to His love. One run in particular, I do not have good enough words to describe it, but I saw each person in my life who I know: family, friends, and acquaintances, and I SAW, if only a glimpse, the intense love God has for that person. For each individual. It was like a bright glow, warm, rainbow of light. By the way, God's heart ache's for you.
The night before the race, I laid in bed and meditated on Psalm 40. Here are some of the verses:
V. 1-3 "I waited patiently for the Lord; And He inclined to me, And heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit, Out of the miry clay, And set my feet upon a rock, And established my steps. He has put a new song in my mouth-Praise to our God; Many will see it and fear, And will trust in the Lord." --That's me!
During the race, my ipod played songs that helped push me along. Here are the songs that I particularly remember that lifted me up (not all necessarily Christian, and not all fast pace, but each I remember brought me joy and God used to nudge me forward)
Listen to the Sound (Building 429) - at mile 5, almost half way...almost. His grace is reaching for us, His grace is reaching out!
Light up the Sky (The Afters) - He is with me.
7x70 (Chris August) - but forgiveness made a way.
Never say Never (The Fray) - Don't let me go, don't let me go.
This one's for the girls (Martina McBride)
Work That (Mary J. Blige) - I think about mile 7 or so. MJB told me to "work what you got, I'm talkin about things that I know. Be yourself!"
Meant to Live (Switchfoot)
Let's Get it Started (Black Eyed Peas)
Eye of the Tiger (Surviver mix) - mile 9 needed this!
Ray of Light (Madonna)
Where you Lead me (Mercy Me)
And then, today, the day after the big race. God has led me to His word, to guide me into the wisdom to know that like a long distance race, life is not easy. But with Jesus, it is never in vain.
Acts 20:24 "...Nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I have received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God."
Hebrews 12:1-2 "...let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith..."
I also want to say, that I could not have done it without the love and support of my family, my husband, and the encouragment of the TEAM in Training folks! I know God used each of them as well to inspire me to keep moving. It reminded me, that as a Christian, I do not live on an island. God uses others to encourage, teach, learn, and challenge us! I love each of you very much. I am so blessed to have such an encouraging family of support. And how blessed I was to experience it. Go Team Ashley!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Sunday, September 11, 2011
We remember
Today, on September 11, 2011 we remember that horrific day for our country 10 years ago. I don't think President Obama could have picked a better reading for the beginning of the memorial service in New York, as I heard him pray Psalm 46 from the Bible.
"God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. Selah
There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells. God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; he lifts his voice, the earth melts. The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Selah
Come and see the works of the Lord, the desolations he has brought on the earth. He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields with fire.
'Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.'
The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress." Selah
As the families who lost their loved ones read the names, nearly 3000 people who died that day. I pray they take these words to heart, I pray we look to Lord Almighty, the God of Jacob, who is ever present in our troubles. I am praying for our great, free country today. That we look to God for our comfort and strength.
Friday, September 2, 2011
For when life happens
Hebrews 10:32, 35-36
"Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised." *
(V. 39) "But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved." *
Colossians 2:6-10
"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, stregthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness. See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ. For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, and you have been given fullness in Christ, who is the head over every power and authority." *
1 Peter 1:21-22
"Through him you believe in God, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God. Now that you have purified yourselves by obeying the truth so that you have sincere love for your brothers, love one another deeply, from the heart." *
Colossians 3:12-14
"Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity." *
*Praying all this is locked secure in my heart today, and forever and ever.
"Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised." *
(V. 39) "But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved." *
Colossians 2:6-10
"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, stregthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness. See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the basic principles of this world rather than on Christ. For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, and you have been given fullness in Christ, who is the head over every power and authority." *
1 Peter 1:21-22
"Through him you believe in God, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God. Now that you have purified yourselves by obeying the truth so that you have sincere love for your brothers, love one another deeply, from the heart." *
Colossians 3:12-14
"Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity." *
*Praying all this is locked secure in my heart today, and forever and ever.
Sunday, August 14, 2011
True confessions continue, fall study.
Toward the end of Luke's Gospel, in Chapter 24, we read the account of Jesus' bodily resurrection from the dead. And after this is discovered by Mary; and confirned by Peter, the disciples were perplexed.
Verse 13 begins, two of them on 'the road to Emmaus' discussing the recent events.
V. 15-16 "As they talked and discussed these things with each other, Jesus himself came up and walked along with them; but they were kept from recognizing him."
To paraphrase, they basically tell this 'stranger' that they are disappointed and confused, they thought Jesus was the Messiah to redeem Israel. But, sadly, the one they thought was the Messiah to save them was killed 3 days ago, and now, his body is gone. Some of the women even claimed to have seen visions of angels, who say he is alive.
Jesus responds. (v. 25-27) "How foolish you are, and how slow of heart to believe all that the prophets have spoken! Did not the Christ have to suffer these things and then enter his glory?
"And beginning with Moses and all the Prophets, he explained to them what was said in all the Scriptures concerning himself."
Enter our fall study. Jesus himself tells us that from the Beginning, the stories have whispered His name and told what He was sent to do, so that we may know Him. A fresh perspective on the Old Testament, instead of just 'life lessons' and 'wise principles' we are going to read about how the Plan has ALWAYS been for Jesus. I am excited to begin this 10 week study this fall with the lovely Jessica Garret!
(John 8:58) "I tell you the truth," Jesus answered, "before Abraham was born, I AM!"
http://www.amazon.com/Promised-One-10-week-Bible-Study/dp/1433526255/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1313371195&sr=8-1
Verse 13 begins, two of them on 'the road to Emmaus' discussing the recent events.
V. 15-16 "As they talked and discussed these things with each other, Jesus himself came up and walked along with them; but they were kept from recognizing him."
To paraphrase, they basically tell this 'stranger' that they are disappointed and confused, they thought Jesus was the Messiah to redeem Israel. But, sadly, the one they thought was the Messiah to save them was killed 3 days ago, and now, his body is gone. Some of the women even claimed to have seen visions of angels, who say he is alive.
Jesus responds. (v. 25-27) "How foolish you are, and how slow of heart to believe all that the prophets have spoken! Did not the Christ have to suffer these things and then enter his glory?
"And beginning with Moses and all the Prophets, he explained to them what was said in all the Scriptures concerning himself."
Enter our fall study. Jesus himself tells us that from the Beginning, the stories have whispered His name and told what He was sent to do, so that we may know Him. A fresh perspective on the Old Testament, instead of just 'life lessons' and 'wise principles' we are going to read about how the Plan has ALWAYS been for Jesus. I am excited to begin this 10 week study this fall with the lovely Jessica Garret!
(John 8:58) "I tell you the truth," Jesus answered, "before Abraham was born, I AM!"
http://www.amazon.com/Promised-One-10-week-Bible-Study/dp/1433526255/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1313371195&sr=8-1
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
True Confessions of a Christian nerd.
I cannot remember what movie I am thinking about, but it's some romantic comedy, where the young man has just won the woman he desires. He is spinning around a busy park, skipping, and singing loudly,
"I'M IN LOVE, I'M IN LOVE, AND I DON'T CARE WHO KNOWS IT!!"
Everyone in the park is looking at him funny and rolling there eyes, maybe getting a few smiles from knowing onlookers. He doesn't pay attention to where he is going, and he falls into a fountain, and he just doesn't seem to notice! He is so joyful about the one he loves!
I once thought I was going to bomb a big test in high school, I winced as the teacher passed the tests back.
A+ !!!!
I couldn't believe it! Not only did I not fail, I got an A!
Well, that is what I felt like, and still feel like when someone mentions Jesus. My wish is for everyone to experience the real Jesus, because he is pure love and pure joy.
Be sure, I did not always feel this way. I was not always a Christian nerd. Until just a few years ago, I did not understand many things about who Jesus is and why it mattered.
Going back to the test scenario. I thought I had made....like a D, in life; when it came to God's standards. I didn't like that, but I thought, I know; I could go back, ask to retake the test, start over and build up my credit again. I was looking at the possibility of working up to a C or B- at most. With enough church going, sermon listening, and Communion taking. I could build myself back up. I was preparing for the journey, and walked into a women's small group Bible study. We read the Bible, and the words began to jump off the page and onto my heart. Verses I either had never seen or heard, or never gave much thought to before.
"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works- so that no one can boast. " (Eph 2:8-9)
"As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us." (Psalm 103:12)
"But then God our Savior showed us his kindness and love. He saved us, not because of the good things we did, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins and gave us a new life through the Holy Spirit." (Titus 3:4-5)
"Therefore he is able, once and forever, to save everyone who comes to God through him. He lives forever to plead with God on their behalf." (Hebrews 7:25)
"However, those the Father has given me will come to me, and I will never reject them. For I have come down from heaven to do the will of God who sent me, not to do what I want. And this is the will of God, that I should not lose even one of all those he has given me, but that I should raise them to eternal life at the last day. For it is my Father's will that all who see his Son and believe in him should have eternal life --that I should raise them on the last day." (John 6:37-40)
"Sin is no longer your master, for you are no longer subject to the law, which enslaves you to sin. Instead, you are free by God's grace." (Romans 6:14)
So, I know, I've told the story before, but I will say it again. I found out how, like everyone else, I had an "F" by God's standards because God is perfect. But God had made a way. Jesus took the test in my place, and passed with flying colors! Now, when God looks at my test score, He sees Jesus' and His is an A+.
Since then, the Holy Spirit which is sealed in me (Eph 1:13-14) convicts me of my own sin, gives me peace when things don't go as I planned, the power to forgive others when they hurt me, the wisdom to understand that God is, not other people are, in charge of my salvation and spiritual growth, shows me just how wide and deep God's love is for me and for everyone else.
And THAT is why I say, I love Jesus! --- From the weird Christian nerd.
"I'M IN LOVE, I'M IN LOVE, AND I DON'T CARE WHO KNOWS IT!!"
Everyone in the park is looking at him funny and rolling there eyes, maybe getting a few smiles from knowing onlookers. He doesn't pay attention to where he is going, and he falls into a fountain, and he just doesn't seem to notice! He is so joyful about the one he loves!
I once thought I was going to bomb a big test in high school, I winced as the teacher passed the tests back.
A+ !!!!
I couldn't believe it! Not only did I not fail, I got an A!
Well, that is what I felt like, and still feel like when someone mentions Jesus. My wish is for everyone to experience the real Jesus, because he is pure love and pure joy.
Be sure, I did not always feel this way. I was not always a Christian nerd. Until just a few years ago, I did not understand many things about who Jesus is and why it mattered.
Going back to the test scenario. I thought I had made....like a D, in life; when it came to God's standards. I didn't like that, but I thought, I know; I could go back, ask to retake the test, start over and build up my credit again. I was looking at the possibility of working up to a C or B- at most. With enough church going, sermon listening, and Communion taking. I could build myself back up. I was preparing for the journey, and walked into a women's small group Bible study. We read the Bible, and the words began to jump off the page and onto my heart. Verses I either had never seen or heard, or never gave much thought to before.
"For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith- and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works- so that no one can boast. " (Eph 2:8-9)
"As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us." (Psalm 103:12)
"But then God our Savior showed us his kindness and love. He saved us, not because of the good things we did, but because of his mercy. He washed away our sins and gave us a new life through the Holy Spirit." (Titus 3:4-5)
"Therefore he is able, once and forever, to save everyone who comes to God through him. He lives forever to plead with God on their behalf." (Hebrews 7:25)
"However, those the Father has given me will come to me, and I will never reject them. For I have come down from heaven to do the will of God who sent me, not to do what I want. And this is the will of God, that I should not lose even one of all those he has given me, but that I should raise them to eternal life at the last day. For it is my Father's will that all who see his Son and believe in him should have eternal life --that I should raise them on the last day." (John 6:37-40)
"Sin is no longer your master, for you are no longer subject to the law, which enslaves you to sin. Instead, you are free by God's grace." (Romans 6:14)
So, I know, I've told the story before, but I will say it again. I found out how, like everyone else, I had an "F" by God's standards because God is perfect. But God had made a way. Jesus took the test in my place, and passed with flying colors! Now, when God looks at my test score, He sees Jesus' and His is an A+.
Since then, the Holy Spirit which is sealed in me (Eph 1:13-14) convicts me of my own sin, gives me peace when things don't go as I planned, the power to forgive others when they hurt me, the wisdom to understand that God is, not other people are, in charge of my salvation and spiritual growth, shows me just how wide and deep God's love is for me and for everyone else.
And THAT is why I say, I love Jesus! --- From the weird Christian nerd.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
How shall I respond?
"Fight every battle in prayer, and you will win every time."
Jesus said, (Matthew 5:43-48) "You have heard that it was said, "Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.""
Ephesians 2: 3-5
"All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifing the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions-it is by grace you have been saved."
James 4: 6-8
" 'God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.' Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. "
1 Samuel 16:7
"...The Lord does not look at the things a man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."
Luke 23:34
"Jesus said, 'Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.'"
Help me God, cause I don't understand your ways all the time. I love you so much. You are amazing! Thank you for saving me from myself! As you said on the cross, "It is finished" your finished work has freed me!! Give me your strength to endure and continue to proclaim who you are. All for Your glory, never for myself.
Jesus said, (Matthew 5:43-48) "You have heard that it was said, "Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be sons of your Father in heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous. If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that? Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.""
Ephesians 2: 3-5
"All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifing the cravings of our sinful nature and following its desires and thoughts. Like the rest, we were by nature objects of wrath. But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions-it is by grace you have been saved."
James 4: 6-8
" 'God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.' Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Come near to God and he will come near to you. "
1 Samuel 16:7
"...The Lord does not look at the things a man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."
Luke 23:34
"Jesus said, 'Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.'"
Help me God, cause I don't understand your ways all the time. I love you so much. You are amazing! Thank you for saving me from myself! As you said on the cross, "It is finished" your finished work has freed me!! Give me your strength to endure and continue to proclaim who you are. All for Your glory, never for myself.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Jesus,church, and beautiful basics
I recently posted on facebook a book/author I found, Dan Trimmal, who wrote They like Jesus but not the church and I like Jesus but not the church. Pretty sure I got some funny looks from all sides, but I wanted to comment on it by posing this analogy.
Zach liked this so I thought I would blog it.
Let us say, that you have never met my husband Zach and I. Say you met us at a party. And you thought, "hey, I really like Zach, he seems like such a nice guy and has so many good things to say, but I don't like Haley. She is really annoying, and I don't like her."
So, you really want to be friends with Zach, but the thing is, Zach is married to me. He loves me, and while getting to know Zach and spending time with him, you will begin to get to know Haley as well. Or maybe, before that even, the fact that Zach DOES love Haley and is commited to her.
Jesus loves His church, he sacrificed his life for her. Jesus has a similar relationship with the church of believers, as a husband to his wife.
More than anything, I would like to see the universal, Christian church wake up and get back to preserving the gospel truth. Zach and I looked at our budget of giving funds and realized that we are mostly supporting missionaries in the United States. I think this is because the truth the Bible tells us has either been watered down or skewed so much. God's gospel, simple and elegant, able to be understood by a child and still amazes a theologian or philosopher.
Sometimes, we can walk around in life feeling like we have gotten bits and pieces of information but never the whole story. Or, if you have ever taken a high school or college course and the professior failed to hand out a syllabus. And every class assignment and lecture feels random, and you may walk away feeling like, yeah, I did learn something... I guess I can try to use that somehow. Well, here is the syllabus that put it all together for me.
My syllabus for Life:
1. I was created for God, by God:
Psalm 100:3 Know that the Lord is God. It is he who made us, and we are his; we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
Acts 17:24 The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and eath and does not live in temples built by hands.
2. I have sinned:
Romans 3:23 For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God
Isaiah 53:6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.
3. Sin's penalty is death, I will die physically and spiritually:
Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord
Romans 5:12 Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned.
4. Christ paid my wage-what I earned, by his death and resurrection, paid in full.
2 Cor. 5:21 God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.
1 Peter 1:18-19 For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.
5. I believe and I am assured in Christ, and He leads me to life.
John 1:12 Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God-
John 5:24 I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life.
Eph 1:13 And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit.
Zach liked this so I thought I would blog it.
Let us say, that you have never met my husband Zach and I. Say you met us at a party. And you thought, "hey, I really like Zach, he seems like such a nice guy and has so many good things to say, but I don't like Haley. She is really annoying, and I don't like her."
So, you really want to be friends with Zach, but the thing is, Zach is married to me. He loves me, and while getting to know Zach and spending time with him, you will begin to get to know Haley as well. Or maybe, before that even, the fact that Zach DOES love Haley and is commited to her.
Jesus loves His church, he sacrificed his life for her. Jesus has a similar relationship with the church of believers, as a husband to his wife.
More than anything, I would like to see the universal, Christian church wake up and get back to preserving the gospel truth. Zach and I looked at our budget of giving funds and realized that we are mostly supporting missionaries in the United States. I think this is because the truth the Bible tells us has either been watered down or skewed so much. God's gospel, simple and elegant, able to be understood by a child and still amazes a theologian or philosopher.
Sometimes, we can walk around in life feeling like we have gotten bits and pieces of information but never the whole story. Or, if you have ever taken a high school or college course and the professior failed to hand out a syllabus. And every class assignment and lecture feels random, and you may walk away feeling like, yeah, I did learn something... I guess I can try to use that somehow. Well, here is the syllabus that put it all together for me.
My syllabus for Life:
1. I was created for God, by God:
Psalm 100:3 Know that the Lord is God. It is he who made us, and we are his; we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.
Acts 17:24 The God who made the world and everything in it is the Lord of heaven and eath and does not live in temples built by hands.
2. I have sinned:
Romans 3:23 For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God
Isaiah 53:6 We all, like sheep, have gone astray, each of us has turned to his own way; and the Lord has laid on him the iniquity of us all.
3. Sin's penalty is death, I will die physically and spiritually:
Romans 6:23 For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord
Romans 5:12 Therefore, just as sin entered the world through one man, and death through sin, and in this way death came to all men, because all sinned.
4. Christ paid my wage-what I earned, by his death and resurrection, paid in full.
2 Cor. 5:21 God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.
1 Peter 1:18-19 For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect.
5. I believe and I am assured in Christ, and He leads me to life.
John 1:12 Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God-
John 5:24 I tell you the truth, whoever hears my word and believes him who sent me has eternal life and will not be condemned; he has crossed over from death to life.
Eph 1:13 And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit.
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